Homesickness (MArch 5, 2011)

Today I find myself missing my home. I am still in the habit of calling Jacksonville home instead of here. I should probably start making the distinction. I have had the opportunity to talk with a few of my close friends and catch up recently. While I am really glad I got to talk with them, it just makes me miss them more. Don't get me wrong, there are really nice people here that have been very welcoming and I am blessed to have friends here as well, but I miss all my friends. If moving to Korea showed me anything, it was that I had a lot of very close friends. For instance, my friend Raven recently got to participate in our cities "Art Walk" where local artists and craftsman sell their wares downtown. It is a lot of fun and I would have loved to have been there for her. My best friend's baby is getting so big so fast and I am missing all of it. I got to live with this baby from the time she was born, to when she was ten months old, and now she is talking and I have not even heard her say anything yet. I went to get pho with Justin and his best friend, and all it did was remind me of awesome pho dates with Nadia and Jenn. I just developed such special and close friendships before I left and it has been harder than I thought to be away from them. Now don't get me wrong, I love Korea so far, and am deliriously happy to be with Justin, but I would love to walk around Jacksonville and enjoy all the familiar places that are so close to my heart now. It really comes in waves so tomorrow I will probably be content with the idea of staying here for a long time, but for now I miss eating chinese food and watching Gilmore Girls with Nadia and KayMarie, I miss screaming my head off at Jags games and wandering around Riverside with Mary, I miss watching Walking Dead and taking late night sonic runs with Raven, and I miss pho dates with Jenn and Liam. I know that it is part of growing up, the whole moving away and starting your own life, but right now I just want to be home. I know I am supposed to be here, I feel a peace about it, but sometimes I just miss my home and my loved ones so much. I think it is tougher sometimes because I know it will be such a long time before I see them again. For now, all I can do is embrace where God has lead me and search for whatever it is He wants me to accomplish while I am here.